Demanding...

Among the people that know me I am considered to be quite demanding of myself and other people. I create expectations and get frustrated when the persons that I care about do not meet them. 

Do not get scared, getting older and having expectations frustrated time and time again, has thought me to be not to so demanding or at least not to get so frustrated. Even so, there are times that my personality gets the better of me and I create them and get frustrated by them.

Sometimes life is complicated, by us...

On being me...

Lol, this title does sound pretensious...

The other day someone I know made a comment on my personality that I had not heard for awhile, but that is not a rare comment:

"You like to isolate yourself. I do not agree with that." (or something close to this).

Basically this person, as (so many) others, disagrees with me doing things by myself. Or putting in another way, with the fact that I only count on me for doing stuff that I want to do. I like going to the cinema, for walks, shopping and other stuff. And if I have no one to do this things with I will go by myself and enjoy myself. Most people find this strange, and they have no problems in telling me this to my face. As if because I do things differently from most people I am the one in the wrong...

I am not saying that this is the correct way of living. It is just my way.

I may not agree, or think is healthy, to completely depend on others to do stuff, but I do not go around criticizing people for this. I may have in occasions told someone that it would be good for them to try and be by themselves for awhile. But I do not tell them that I do not like the way they live their lives.

So, why do these persons think they can tell me these kind of things?! Is there really a single way of living your live?!

I think not!

I agree that I am basically a solitary person, and admit that occasionally I do feel lonely. However, I am comfortable with myself and in the end that is what matters.

Life is solitary journey. We are born and die by ourselves. (I do not mean with no one around us, but that these are things that can only be experienced by oneself.) Each one of us as a very particular way to perceive the world. Some people are better at conveying their thoughts than others. These are the ones that are socially more successful. I am not one of those persons, and I am cool with that. It was not always like this.

P.S. - I do like having friends and I appreciate the ones I have.

Life...

Sometimes takes us be surprise... That is all I wanted to say, even though it is nothing new...

Time for bed, but not before a brief post... :)

Sometimes I feel like I'm back to my school days as a kid, when I prepared everything for the following day in advance and had to check in to bed early... When I decided to that this was going to be the next step in my life I already knew there would be hectic times, with little self time or worse with little time for others. However, when these kind of times come it is always tough. I feel like I am falling short of what I am capable of doing... I know I have so much stuff to do, that I feel increasingly frustrated with the fact that the day only has 24h and that I really need to sleep...

And the fun part is that IT ONLY JUST BEGUN...

You know whta the solution is? Vacations... I so need some right now...

The was the rant of the day/night...

Time goes by... :)

Be warned: This post is going to be a mix of things...

First, I am already 29 y.o. and a week (;p). Wow.

You would not believe if I told you that just this friday a guy tried to pick me up at the metro when I was returning home. This is not the unbeliveable thing, I hope.. But that he asked me my age and told me to my face that he thought that I was 18/19 y.o.... He either was so keen in having some luck that he fooled himself to believe that I was young and naïve or was further pushing is luck by trying to flatter me. Though I think it was the former, he asked me the strangest questions, such as if I was going home, where did I live, if lived with my parents or by myself, if I wanted to friends with him (who I had just met)... As if I was going any of this questions to a stranger... I was both amused and shocked.

Actually, I have been told that I look younger than my age, but I really think its pushing a bit to much to say that I look 10 years younger...

So this was the part dedicated to time concerning my age. I will not address the typical issues. Sometimes I do not even believe that I will be 30 in a year, but I do not really think that I would want to go back to college or even teenagehood.

The second part concerns another measure of time, the one related to relative time. How things that sometimes occurred long ago seem recent or things that are recent appear to be from a somewhat distant past. A few moments back, while I was surfing the internet I decided to go to a certain artist site/blog/whatever. This artist is named Van Ness Wu, that I got to know through a taiwanese drama that I watch a while back. He happens to also be a singer and a heck of a dancer (guys who CAN dance just kill me...). Not so long ago he released a Japanese single, that I got addicted to when I started reading stuff for my thesis project and during February I replayed this song all the time. But I have not listen to it for awhile know, and today I decided to listn to it again. And it seemed that that period of time was so long ago that I was surprised, only 3/4 months have passed...

Having said all this I decided to share is song with you guys.

VanNess Wu - Reason

(credits to 99yuchi @ YouTube)

3rd year of existence and other stuff

Yesterday marked the third year that this blog has been up and... (more or less) running. Actually, I did not forget this time (I've put a warning on my cellphone, lol), but I did not feel like writing. Also, no cool subject came to mind.

So, why am I writing today? During the day while chatting with my Sis online, she was listening to a Portuguese Radio. It seems that they where in a mood for memory lane and, consequently so was she. As usual she decided to share some of them with me. One of which that I decided to share with you all.

I actually thought that this song was not has old as it is. Its from 1989... uau... But it is a fun song. Enjoy.

D.A.D. - Sleeping My Day Away

(credits to AndreRicardoAlbino @ YouTube)

Long time no see...

I know... I' ashamed... Almost two months without posting (and the blog police has been mum about this, which surprises me more...).

Life has been hectic these past 2 months, too many hours working. I know that it was my choice, but I still have the right to complain about it. So I am bit on the tired side, and that means either lack of inspiration or lack of wanting to come here and write. Right now I am writing so I can proscratinate a bit more, I have something to do for work... :)

In order to completely succeed in my proscratination, I decided to share some music with you guys. I remembered this music in particular because of a CD that was given to me about 4 year a go by a good friend with whom I have been out of touch (Hope that everything is alright with you?). This CD is a compilation of albuns that he thought I might enjoy, among them there are two of Zero 7. One of my favourite song of them is Destiny, that I decided to share with you:

Zero 7 - Destiny

(credits to ub4k @ YouTube)

Remember Me

My "Baby" Sister completed her (1)26th birthday 8 days ago. I know that this is a bit late but still: Happy Birthday, SIS!! :D

Like last year she came Home to celebrate her birthday with her family, and she was with us on the actual day. Thank You. :) Considering that I am working this time around, the two of us did not spend as much time as usual together, but we did manage something. One of which was going to the movies this Thursday, one of our favorite activities. She really wanted to go see Remember Me with Robert Pattinson, that came out on that day. Originally we talked about going to the 9 o'clock session, but the tickets sold out. So we decided to go to the midnight session, which ended at 2 o´clock in the morning. Call me crazy if you want, I called myself that, knowing that I had to be up by 7 o'clock in the morning the next day... Oh well...

Tired as I have been feeling lately I was afraid I would fall a sleep in the theater, but... Actually the movie was pretty good in my opinion. Yes, Robert Pattinson once again portrays a revolted young (in The Twilight Saga is not has young has he looks, but still young) man, which suits him like a glove. The boy really has the ability to express that type of inner turmoil as if he was honestly feeling it. But that is the only "similarity" I could find. It is not a teen movie, it has romance but not of the (obsessive) fated-to-love-ever-since-I-set-my-eyes-on-you-until-the-moment-I-die kind. It is of the type where two people share similar traumatic events that allow them to comprehend each other without the need for words. The movie shows us how by finding this person, Robert's character (Tyler) is able to come to peace with his trauma and mend is relationship with is Father. Another important aspect is the beautiful relationship between Tyler and his (much) younger sister, it was one of my favorites. Now, comes the warning: the film is a real tear jerker and the ending is sort of unexpected. You have been warned, now go see it. lol

I just have one thing to mention in a not so good side. There is a scene in which Tyler and his Father (portrayed by Pierce Brosnan) are having an argument and I did not like Pierce Brosnan's performance during it... I was surprised by it, I usually do not have any complaint about Pierce Brosnan's work, but it felt too artificial, too strained and his accent sounded phony (which it was because he is Irish). But that is really the only thing that I have to mention.

A side note: The only time that I really feared to fall a sleep was during the break, specially when the lights went out and the movie took about 15 to 20s to start...

P.S. - The movie as had some really bad critics specially because of the ending, but I really think you should go and see it for yourself and then come to a conclusion. 

Back in the Lab

After 1 year and almost 1 month, today I was finally back in the lab. wow

And actually... it was kind of boring... lol

Usually, the first few days are always like this. You have to fellow people around to know how things work in the lab, which techniques you are going to use and how they apply them. Basically, you are dependent of others. Things start getting fun when you are independent and organize your own work and time.

So, even though things are kindda slow now and I am trying to learn as much as I can, I am more excited than it may seem from what I have written. I'm happy to back in a lab.

Which me luck! :)

I do not consider myself a feminist, but...

... there are things that are beyond my comprehension. And this is one of them (please click on the picture to enlarge and read the text):

 

(credits to whoever first posted this online)

I know that we are talking about a completely different decade. the World was a completely different place in the 1960s. But still, to me, it is shocking to see something like this written and to actually acknowledge that this was the kind of role that was expected from women at that time: unopiniated, obedient, complaint to your husband's wills (whatever they are) and untitled to even feel pleasure... wow...

And I think that I will leave you with that, because I might start exposing my opinion too fiercely...

I would like to "hear" your thoughts on this.

Canção de Engate - António Variações

After yesterday's depressing post, I decided to share with you all a music from my childhood from one of Portugal's most innovative artists from the 1980's. :) 

I know it's been almost 30 years, but it is an amazing song. 

Actually, my first real recollection of this song is a cover, even though I think I have always known it was not the original. So, I decided to share both versions and the lyrics. Unfortunately I have not found the translation and I lack the confidende to do it myself (I am a Biology major not an English major..., but I might try to persuade my Sister... hihihi).

On with the videos:

Original: António Variações

(credits to MASMP @ YouTube)

To be honest, I do not remember hearing this version, but I liked it.

Cover: Delfins

(credits to nelsoncarmo26 @ Youtube)

 Lyrics (credits to LT):

Tu estás livre e eu estou livre
e há uma noite para passar
porque não vamos unidos
porque não vamos ficar
na aventura dos senti - dos

tu estás só e eu mais só estou
que tu tens o meu olhar
tens a minha mão aberta
à espera de se fechar
nessa tua mão deser- ta

vem que o amor
não é o tempo
nem é o tempo
que o faz
vem que o amor
é o momento
eu que eu me dou
em que te dás
tu que buscas companhia
e eu que busco quem quiser
ser o fim desta energia
ser um corpo de prazer
ser o fim de mais um di - a

tu continuas à espera
do melhor que já não vem
e a esperança fio encontrada
antes de ti por alguém
e eu sou melhor que na - da
refrão (3x)

And the usual links:

António Variações - Wiki

Delfins - Myspace

Strange Moods...

There are days that you just feel like crap... you might not really know the reason for you to feel like that, but that depressing feeling will accompany you from the time you wake up until you go to bed. You might even still feel the same the next day...

Just a random outburst... Everything will be fine in a few days. Sometimes being a girl is complicated!! lol

Mute Math - You Are Mine

Mute Math is a band that I discovered through my Sister (a.k.a., My Personal Music Dealer), who in turn discovered them because of The Twilight Saga Soundtracks.

This is one of my favorite songs by them:

Mute Math - You Are Mine

(Sorry, I was only able to find live videos)

(Credits to thepromisecollision @ YouTube)

Lyrics (credits to mute math web):

Everyone has their obsession
Consuming thoughts, consuming time
They hold high their prized posession
That defines the meaning of their lives

You are mine
You are mine
You are mine, oh mine
You are mine

There are objects of affection
That can mesmerize the soul
There is always one addiction
That just cannot be controlled

You are mine
You are mine
You are mine, oh mine
You are mine

Everyone has their obsession
Consuming thoughts, consuming time
They hold high their prized posession
They hold high their prized posession

And here are the usual links:
Official Site (it has clips from their concerts in Japan, go check it)
Official YouTube
Wikipedia

Back to Life

After 3 weeks of vacation that felt shorter than what they were, life resumed itself last week. To be honest it was not easy to return to having to wake up really early and to the lack of time to myself. Besides all that the weather has been really crappy and the hormones were at their best at the beginning of the week... Sometimes I feel sorry for who ever crosses my path during these days, because most of time I am unaware of the state I am in, becoming really really short tempered and needing a LOT of personal space. But well, that has passed now, I am stressed but for other reasons. Hmm, the reasons are the same but just do not seem so disproportioned has they did on Monday (or Tuesday or Wednesday). 

I do have another reason to stress though, I seem to have misplaced something very important and do not seem able to remember where I might I have put it... Usually, I am very careful with these kind of things, but it is the second object, in the space of a week, that I do not remember where I might have put it and this one is really important...

On a brighter note, yesterday I bought my ticket to Metallica's concert in May. It had to be for the second day, because I took to long to buy it the first day sold out... Which means that I will probably go by myself again to a concert, since most the people I know bought their tickets for the first day...

And this was just another random post for your entertainment.. :)

2009

United States of America

January

de Young Museum

 

California Academy of Sciences (only the view from outside)

February

California Academy of Sciences (the view from inside)

Japanese Tea Garden

 

Pacific Ocean Beach

Alcatraz

Portugal

April

  

My City

July

  

 

OPTIMUS Alive Festival - Metallica

Festival Marés Vivas - Lamb

I only have half of the year here, first because I still have a lot of photos in my camera, second, because I took a lot less pictures in the second half of the year. :) 

Nonetheless, it still is a good wrap of the year that just ended.

Welcome to 2010!!

Happy New Year everyone!! :)

I hope this year, you are all healthy and that it is a year full of good events.

I hope that we can all take a step forward in our lives facing the obstacles put before us straight on (our a least with the best of our abilities, so that we do not regret anything).

And do not forget to have fun and enjoy life!!!