I just listened to this song and decided to share it, just because...
It reminds me of my childhood, of times gone by. I cannot say that they where happier times, but somehow now (today, at this moment) they seem. I think most people always look at their childhood as an happier time, maybe because when we are kids we are more innocent and able to see joy in the smallest things. It would be good if sometimes we would still be able to time to time see life that way. I know that we have to become not so trusting and naïve to go through life, but... it's still sad that growing up means losing such a wonderful gift.
So, here goes:
Rod Stewart - Have I Told You Lately That I Love You (Unplugged)
If you read my previous post you might have noticed that I have kept my mind busy, which could mean that I had a lot to post. So why did I not do it?
Maybe because I am a proud person and I do not like to admit that I feel like I am not doing as good as I think I should be doing. I do not like to doubt myself, and I have done that so often in the past years. (How could we think as teenagers that life was easier as adults?!) So actually writing it down is difficult, despite also being a quite relieving action. When I am troubled I tend to close myself up more than usual, it is a mechanism of defence...
There were times that I thought of things and considered them interesting to post, but eventually I would dismiss them for a number of reasons. Being the most prominent one laziness and the second one to think that it was exposing to much. The funny thing is that this blog was created for me to write about what troubled me, how I felt at the time. It also has had the purpose of sharing experiences and things I like, but it was mostly to put my thoughts out in the world. And the latter has been the least done.
I am my own editor. And what a fearsome editor am I...
So, you can say that one of the main reasons that I have no been posting is that I been to troubled and stressed with life...
A random fact in 15 days I'll be 30... Doesn't wisdom come with age?
The visual part of the video reminds me of the 80s. And the music in itself also kind of reminds me of that decade. Maybe that is the reason I like the music, I do quite enjoy 80s music!
Maybe it is because of the message:
Don't let go
Never give up
It's a wonderful life
I am not thinking of giving up on life, I do not really work that way. But I have been thinking and rethinking if the choice that I made to go for a PhD was the correct one. It's not that I was expecting it to be easy, it's more that it is not giving me the thrill that I expected it to give. I choose as I always do, I went for what was more appealing to me. However, I also made the easiest choice by going for a project that was more or less already drawn by me supervisor. That does not mean that do not have input, actually I think he would like me to give more. It is just that other than my boss there is no one else that really is experienced in our group, so sometimes support (in basic stuff) is lacking. There is also the question of the other lab members, I do not really feel that we are actually a group... I miss my friends from my "previous life". Work-wise things where not that good, but friend-wise... they where great.
I do not usually give up on the choices that I made. And, even though I am not completely happy with everything and from time to time get quiet depressed about things, I do not really see an actual reason to go back on this one. Meaning that I am going to stick to it and give my best as usual. I just wish that I would not make things so hard on myself by over-thinking everything...
